Today a great caring friend informed me that as brilliant as I am philosophically, spiritually and humanitarianly I sometimes lack the ability to understand and have compassion for my fellow sentient beings who may not have the growth and consciousness that I have accrued through my seeking of MY truth.
I was not shocked as I already knew this about my self. The old adage of not tolerating fools lightly has always been my motto; I have tried to grow past this as a Manager of a Small Corporate Cleaning Company.
Here lies my dilemma. How on earth do I acquire this characteristic? Buddhism helped greatly with their doctrine of compassion. My Christian Ministry training gave me the gift of forgiveness. Logically I know we are all at different stages of growth, however when I teach or preach/guide, some of my audience can feel some what judged or intimidated which was not my motive and intention at all.
Naturally my first response is to blame my charismatic character and passion for the subject I am bestowing on my audience. But hey, that is just an excuse. I must find an alternative.
Something I have learnt and believed in is everything is a half truth. There is no absolute truth in our world as there are as many different perceptions in every sentient being. Environmental, societal, religious and parental instruction has bestowed so many belief systems on all of us and created so many different half truths and ideas. Not mention "where is their information coming from?
The point of losing our authentic self and our contact with the only holy truth of universal consciousness/GOD, consciousness seems to me to be our only answer. Yet how do I continue to be successful in helping people move on without invading their personal truths that are destructive to them and causing them pain. Is it their egos or is it my immaturity to fulfill my call/dharma.
Yet, the dilemma still lies in me to have the compassion and understanding that not every incarnated soul is at, or on the same path, yet still touch their hearts with new information invoking change and revelation.
Love is the answer, yet my overriding passion to heal and help humanity to move onto the next stage of evolution and spiritual consciousness has me excited and interpretated by a few as authoritive control. It seems theres always a small part of my audience that thinks its my (me) way or the highway which is the last thing I want to convey. Recently this week my spirit said in that quiet inner space I call universal consciousness/GOD, Monique wait for the fruit to ripen on the bough which I totally understand. I am an impatient soul with a yearning and burning to free as many of the slaves of the old energy to become free to Love and Care and Cherish themselves as the perfect beings that they are. One with all and the Universe/GOD.
I guess just writing this article has helped me to clarify a lesson that is badly needed for me to reach as many souls in pain and suffering as I can. I am always reading articles and most of them are sharing their experience and advice to others. This article is a little different in the fact that I am exposing a character defect in myself that is blocking the potential I have within. A humbling experience indeed.
Maybe some of you can relate, and then again some of you may have already overcome this defect of character. Any help would be most welcome. Please email me at woundedhealer@iprimus.com.au with any positive guidance.
Criticism and judgment is not really what Im after, your experience and tools to overcome my dilemma would be much more appreciated. I know theres a soul out there who can help.
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